Crashing Back to Reality

Well, I’m back. With a bang, with a crash, with a sobering dose of reality. After some much-needed sleep, I feel better, but yesterday was tough.

The real world keeps moving, making constant demands of you, and never quite allowing you to feel like you’ve got a hang of it. The Vipassana world was incredibly insulated, eye-opening, challenging, scary, insightful, and so much more, but it was far removed from the real world and I definitely underestimated the fallout.

So, I have to remind myself that taking a few days to slowly recover, slowly digest and process and come to terms with the understanding that everything is alright, and that this difficulty is expected. I’ll be okay, things around me around okay, life will be okay. Yet, coming back to be greeted by death, anxiety, and uncertainty, whilst simultaneously trying to grasp everything that the past twelve days was and will mean, feels deeply overwhelming right now, in ways I’ve never experienced.

Many things I’m itching to write about and get out of my brain and onto a page. Right now, I still feel a little bit insane and like my mental circuitry needs some repairs. More to come. Much more to come.